the writings of a man foolish enough to believe

15th May 2011

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So tomorrow marks my first time as the main worship leader at Hillsong Northern Beaches Extension. Have I prepared? Why yes of course. Do I feel ready? Yes, and No.

Leading people into the presence of God is something you can never fully prepare for. There’s so many things I can be intimidated by. The largely non-Asian congregation (hey I’m being honest here), the fact that it is a Hillsong platform (yes I’ll admit, it gets to me), the fact that I’m not that great at all, and of course the fact that one of the worship leaders/songwriters whom I greatly admired as I was just getting into the whole worship deal is actually playing bass on my team. What an honour, but also so flippin’ scary.

Part of me wonders, what am I doing here? Why am I on this platform? Why don’t I just get out of the way and let others who are way more gifted than me just do this? Why me?

I can ask all the questions. I can look for the all the answers. I will find some. Others, I will never find. It doesn’t change the fact that I am where I am, called to do what I am called to do.

I’ll concede that I’ll never be ready. And I have to be alright with that. For He is able.

In everything, I’m just seeking to know Him, and to make Him known.

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